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Saturday, April 08, 2006

arghh im wide awake at this hour cuz ive been so nocturnal of late.not up to writing a substancial entry so shall post pics ive grabbed from friends' blogs haha!

nydc dinner today with mg pple!:)we rea

lly dont do this often enough:( i miss mg loads and
loads!

haagen dazs with t

ony and s

haun!

reina ♥ 4/08/2006 02:49:00 AM link to post 0 comments

Sunday, April 02, 2006

After 2 and a half hours on the phone,of which the topic of conversation remained fixated on one,solitary,lone,specific subject,and after all that moping,ranting,bitching, still arriving at the same conclusion.i was ready to pull out all the hairs of my head in exasperation.Being unable to voice out the extent of my exasperation bearing in mind his volatile state,ive resorted to blogging about it.

Isn't it better to attain some form of closure rather than to be stuck in a rut?All that uncertainty..An open wound left alone and untreated would hurt more than a few stitches in the long run.And i dont understand how normally rational pple can accept being at someone else's mercy..at the risk of being vulnerable,at the risk of potential,probable hurt.it scares me somehow.. cuz i can't say i wouldnt be the same way if situations were reversed.Best solution?walk out that door and don't look back.Easier said than done though,especially when your heart no longer listens to what your head tells you.
(point of information:all this is not about me so dont jump to conclusions.)
reminds me of a song i remembered while bumming ard at queen b's house today..its by vonda shepherd from the ally mcbeal soundtrack.

i'd rather you leave me than love and lie
i'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
i'd rather take the blow
well at least then,i would know
Baby don't you break my heart slow.

anyway on a seperate note..ive concluded that guys in big groups only have 2 main topics of conversation..the army and dota haha!au revoir, my soon to-be-enlisted mates!and for crying out loud,no more training during your final week of freedom!Haha.

reina ♥ 4/02/2006 01:04:00 AM link to post 0 comments